The last week has been trying. Really, really trying. I’m sick of the hospital and sick of being away from my son. Oh, and also physically sick – as in vomiting for several hours Wednesday night. And worrying incessantly about the rest of my family who caught the bug and I wasn’t there to care for. Yea, I had my limit.
I’ve cried and cried and cried. I told my husband I was done, that I couldn’t do it anymore, that I was coming home. So, I called in the nurse practitioner and told her through my tears that I needed to go and I couldn’t wait until Sunday for the doctor to check my cervix and make his weekly decision. I asked to get off my contraction meds and check me sooner. He agreed to do it today. I geared myself up for leaving even though I knew it wouldn’t happen.
Since my check on Monday my cervix shortened more, measuring once at 1.1cm and once only in millimeters. And the big issue, my funneling was much worse. They rate it in letters, mine being considered a “U”, which is the worse case. Essentially, the top of my cervix is open and the bag of water is bulging down – like what you see here:
Liz is a just a mom trying to keep it real about how little she sleeps, how often she gets puked on and how much she loves them. You can find her here every day writing about real-mom moments.
ffprncez says
I am so sorry you are going through this and my heart hurts for you!!
Ashley says
I am so sorry! I know you know this and I can’t imagine how you must feel but it will be worth it. Doesnt help much right now I’m sure. 🙁 I hope you can connect with a friend in the hospital!
Zookeeper Jess says
I am so sorry! How many weeks are you right now? Praying for you.
Missy F says
I’d imagine I would be feeling the exact same way as you if I were in your situation..it’s because you are such a good mama & wife that you care so much and are feeling so bad. I hope connecting with another “longterm-er” helps you get thru the days quicker, sending lots of prayers and well wishes to you & your fam ; )You may already be doing this, but is there a way for you to skype or chat with brady throughout the day? I’d imagine seeing him as much as possible would be great for you and him ; )
beka says
I hope that the friend they match you with is awesome and relatable and a great partner for you as you go through this!
Lucy Marie says
We haven’t forgotten you. I’m praying for you often. I can’t imagine the stir crazy feelings you’re going through. You’re doing great and your baby girl is going to thank you for this someday. xoxo