Yesterday was probably the hardest day in terms of getting ancy and irritated. I just want to move! I’m finally able to get out of my room once a day (for a whole 30 minutes) to get wheeled around the hospital grounds. It helps a bit, I’m sure. I feel like I have plenty of things to keep my mind busy and occupied but my body is physically bored. My mom is picking me up a few things from the craft store so I can attempt to make an Easter wreath so maybe that might help?
It’s been very uneventful around here. I take meds, I have my blood pressure taken, I listen to baby girl on the monitor and watch for contractions. And I sit. And I sit. Oh, and I patiently wait for visitors.
For a few moments here and there I’ll get in the groove, get busy with something and feel like everything is going to be ok. Then I look around and remember that I live at the hospital…indefinitely. I can’t help but bury my head in my hands and cry every chance I get. I just miss my family so much and even though I have been getting some great visits with them it is just not the same.
Brady has already learned his new routine so quickly and goes to bed each night for daddy just fine. When they pull up to the hospital he instantly says my name and knows they’re here to see me. He also knows I can’t leave when they do and grabs his dad’s hand and waves bye to me, blowing me a kiss. It is so hard but I am insanely thankful that he doesn’t leave kicking and screaming each time. I just don’t think I could handle that.
Today is day six and since its Saturday I hope to get a good long visit with both of my boys. I’ve been working a lot on my blog since I’ve been here and next week there are going to be lots of fun things happening and some giveaway’s from some very lovely Etsy shops.
Thank you all again for all of your prayers and comments of support. I love opening my email and seeing them each morning. 🙂
Liz is a just a mom trying to keep it real about how little she sleeps, how often she gets puked on and how much she loves them. You can find her here every day writing about real-mom moments.
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