Yesterday was probably the hardest day in terms of getting ancy and irritated. I just want to move! I’m finally able to get out of my room once a day (for a whole 30 minutes) to get wheeled around the hospital grounds. It helps a bit, I’m sure. I feel like I have plenty of things to keep my mind busy and occupied but my body is physically bored. My mom is picking me up a few things from the craft store so I can attempt to make an Easter wreath so maybe that might help?
It’s been very uneventful around here. I take meds, I have my blood pressure taken, I listen to baby girl on the monitor and watch for contractions. And I sit. And I sit. Oh, and I patiently wait for visitors.
For a few moments here and there I’ll get in the groove, get busy with something and feel like everything is going to be ok. Then I look around and remember that I live at the hospital…indefinitely. I can’t help but bury my head in my hands and cry every chance I get. I just miss my family so much and even though I have been getting some great visits with them it is just not the same.
Brady has already learned his new routine so quickly and goes to bed each night for daddy just fine. When they pull up to the hospital he instantly says my name and knows they’re here to see me. He also knows I can’t leave when they do and grabs his dad’s hand and waves bye to me, blowing me a kiss. It is so hard but I am insanely thankful that he doesn’t leave kicking and screaming each time. I just don’t think I could handle that.
Today is day six and since its Saturday I hope to get a good long visit with both of my boys. I’ve been working a lot on my blog since I’ve been here and next week there are going to be lots of fun things happening and some giveaway’s from some very lovely Etsy shops.
Thank you all again for all of your prayers and comments of support. I love opening my email and seeing them each morning. 🙂
Liz is a just a mom trying to keep it real about how little she sleeps, how often she gets puked on and how much she loves them. You can find her here every day writing about real-mom moments.
You’ll have a great day with the boys, and I’ll be back tomorrow. xoxo
Thinking of you and hoping you have a great day with your boys!
I saw your blog linked to another blog that I follow and noticed the title – so I came to read. I was on hospital bedrest for a month before the birth of my baby in september 2011. My water broke at 31 weeks. I had twin almost 2 year olds at home. I totally know what you’re feeling right now. I cried and cried the first few days – I missed my normal life and my babies so much. The main advice I can give you is to not think of it as a never ending stay at the hospital. You KNOW you’ll be out of there at some point – so focus on that day. My goal was to make it to 35 weeks – so that’s what I focused on. Not the month(s) spent in the hospital. Also, ask if you can meet any other women on bedrest. It was nice to just watch tv, knit or eat lunch with these other ladies. Some of them were allowed to walk short distances, so they could come to my room. I was on the same restriction as you – a shower and one wheelchair ride a day. The nurses would happily wheel me to another patient room though. 🙂 Keep your head up – it will ALL be worth it when you meet your sweet baby.
I have been thinking about you while driving all over for work this week – I hope that you got to have a great visit with the boys today!!!