I made it… sorta

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Today was my first day back to work and I lived through it.  Although I wouldn’t necessarily call it a success because I’m easing myself back in by working half days.  The real test will be Monday morning when I leave and know that I’m going to be away from the babies for eight whole hours.  I plan to come home on lunch breaks and see them.

I didn’t cry today, although I did last night.  I did however, feel nauseous the entire time.  It was just a sick feeling knowing this is now my life again.  A few hours with my kids each night.  I need to think positive and refuse to let myself be sad.  What good does it do anyway?  Only makes things worse.

I was worried that Brady would be upset when he woke up and called for me and I didn’t go get him, but he woke up happy.  I tried warning him that mama was going back to work but I’m not sure he gets it.  Paityn did fine and ate and slept just like normal.  I’m hoping for a smooth transition for them and hopefully my short days will help that.

Stay-at-home mama’s: take a second to thank your lucky stars you don’t have to do this.